Hi guys! Well, the title of this post says it all. BMI isn't everything. For the past year I've been shooting for a healthy BMI. My goal? A BMI of 24. Normal BMI for my height (5'4") is between 18.5-24.9. So to attain a BMI of 24 (which is the top of the healthy BMI range) is 140lbs. Yeah, I'm still just sitting pretty at 155lbs. 15 lbs from goal. GREAT. Just GREAT! GRRR!
See my frustration? So I tell my Chiropractor about this. (My chiropractor is amazing by the way!) And he suggests we try a body fat percentage test. So I did. My body fat percentage was 25%. The body fat percentage for a FIT woman should be between 21-24%, and for an average normal weight woman should be between 24-31%. So by body fat percentage, I have maybe 5lbs to loose to be in the Fit category.
For REAL? Apparently, I am big boned! LOL! What BMI doesn't take into account is your frame size, your age, or even the amount of breast tissue you have. I want to scream, "BMI, you don't know me!" (You know, like those trashy people on Jerry Springer used to yell at the audience when they would get booed for being tramps.) Anyway, all this made me realize, that BMI just isn't my best tool for calculating what my ideal weight should be.
In other news, I had my one year post surgery checkup the other day. The Dr. was very impressed with my progress. They even asked me to come speak at one of their informational seminars this Saturday morning. (no pressure!) So right now I'm compiling photos for them to use in my presentation. Fun fun. Its not so fun looking at photos of my old self. I barely recognize the person I was. Its crazy. I'll let you know how the speaking thing goes next week. :)
Today's weight:155lbs
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Haters Gonna Hate
Ok, so I know the title is kind of Ghetto. Well, really ghetto, but its how I'm feeling. Here goes:
I haven't blogged in months. One of the main reasons is because I've gotten a lot of negative comments. Not on the blog, mainly other places, but still. At this point I weigh 155lbs. I've officially lost 100lbs. But apparently, you can't please everybody. Hence, Haters gonna Hate.
I've recently gotten comments like,"Stop losing weight! You're getting too skinny!" Um, I'm still 10lbs overweight according to BMI, so I promise, I am not wasting away here. My favorite comment came from a family member. It went something like this, "Wow. I thought you would look a lot thinner, but you do look 100 times better than you did when you were really fat. Maybe I should get that surgery." Um, thanks? Said family member might weigh about 170lbs soaking wet. Luckily I'm not really close to this person, and can easily ignore them.
Sometimes I want to scream, "look here bitches! If you can't say anything nice, then shut up!" And since when did my weight/size become anyone else's business? I guess I thought that by blogging, I had somehow invited people to make those comments. But after talking with my dear friends Kristy and Bryanna, I realized that it's on them. They're the ones being rude. Just because I tell the world how I'm feeling, and what I weigh, it's not an invitation for criticism. So there, that's my excuse for not blogging in a nutshell!
But I'm back! In my size 8 jeans, showing my crazy nutty self again. Hoping to update at least once a week!
Today's Weight: 155
Total Loss: 101 lbs
I haven't blogged in months. One of the main reasons is because I've gotten a lot of negative comments. Not on the blog, mainly other places, but still. At this point I weigh 155lbs. I've officially lost 100lbs. But apparently, you can't please everybody. Hence, Haters gonna Hate.
I've recently gotten comments like,"Stop losing weight! You're getting too skinny!" Um, I'm still 10lbs overweight according to BMI, so I promise, I am not wasting away here. My favorite comment came from a family member. It went something like this, "Wow. I thought you would look a lot thinner, but you do look 100 times better than you did when you were really fat. Maybe I should get that surgery." Um, thanks? Said family member might weigh about 170lbs soaking wet. Luckily I'm not really close to this person, and can easily ignore them.
Sometimes I want to scream, "look here bitches! If you can't say anything nice, then shut up!" And since when did my weight/size become anyone else's business? I guess I thought that by blogging, I had somehow invited people to make those comments. But after talking with my dear friends Kristy and Bryanna, I realized that it's on them. They're the ones being rude. Just because I tell the world how I'm feeling, and what I weigh, it's not an invitation for criticism. So there, that's my excuse for not blogging in a nutshell!
But I'm back! In my size 8 jeans, showing my crazy nutty self again. Hoping to update at least once a week!
Today's Weight: 155
Total Loss: 101 lbs
Monday, October 15, 2012
90 Pounds Down!
So today I have officially lost 90lbs. That's a small person! (A very small person, but a small person at that!) My energy level is amazing, and I'm feeling great! I can eat just about anything I want, as long as its healthy. Fried foods, sweets, and basic junk food make me feel bad. Mainly just give me a headache and make me really tired, so I avoid them. No biggie, they don't taste as good as they used to anyway. And excuse my frankness, but after the way Cracker Barrell's Hash Brown Casserole treated my tummy the other day, I'm convinced that it now tastes like crap. LOL!
I'm working on my fall and winter wardrobe, and its so fun to be able to buy long sweaters to wear with leggings, and tall boots that will actually zip over my calves! Oh, and I was out taking pictures of a High School Senior boy the other day, and two guys totally hit on me! They kept making comments to the guy I was photographing like, "If I were you I'd be taking pictures of her!" Now, I'm not saying I thrive on cheesy pickup lines, or that I even liked it. But I am saying its been a long time since anyone besides my husband hit on me. :)
I'm working on my fall and winter wardrobe, and its so fun to be able to buy long sweaters to wear with leggings, and tall boots that will actually zip over my calves! Oh, and I was out taking pictures of a High School Senior boy the other day, and two guys totally hit on me! They kept making comments to the guy I was photographing like, "If I were you I'd be taking pictures of her!" Now, I'm not saying I thrive on cheesy pickup lines, or that I even liked it. But I am saying its been a long time since anyone besides my husband hit on me. :)
Totally Blurry picture, but cute outfit!
Today's Weight: 166 lbs
Total Lost: 90 lbs!
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Wow!
Ok, so I've only lost 1 lb since my last post. (Ugh!) But, my body is loosing inches, so that's awesome news! (I'm hoping I'm gaining back some muscle mass, and loosing fat at the same time. Hopefully.) Overall I feel really good! No more pain from the gallbladder! I'm hoping it cools off soon so I can start walking/jogging in the evenings again.
Anyway, I have a before and after comparison picture for you! Here it is! The before is from December 2011. The after is from Elliot's 2nd Birthday party on September 1st.
Anyway, I have a before and after comparison picture for you! Here it is! The before is from December 2011. The after is from Elliot's 2nd Birthday party on September 1st.
Today's Weight: 174
Total Loss: 82lbs
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Picture Time!
Ok, Before I post the latest pictures, I thought I'd give an update as to where I am in my weight loss journey. :) Here goes!
I've plateaued. Again. Been sitting steady at 175 for a week now. Damn plateaus!
I went shopping for new jeans the other day. I'm wearing a size 11 at Maurices, and a size 32 in Silver Jeans. (Roughly an 11/12) I haven't worn a size 12 since the 10th grade. Yay!
The sales lady at Maurices told me I have tiny legs. (First time anything on my body has EVER been called tiny!)
In shirts, I'm wearing Larges and some Mediums.
In dresses I'm wearing a 12
I constantly have people asking me if weight loss surgery is for them. And yes Lynn, this section is for you! (among other people) I'm going to answer you with a series of questions. If you can say yes to most of these questions, then weight loss surgery is definitely for you!
SO
Is your BMI into the Obese category? (Above 32?)
Are you feeling sluggish and tired?
Does your weight prohibit you from doing activities that you want to do?
Are you ashamed of the way you look?
Is your weight causing health problems?
Are you willing to completely change the way you eat? (Especially if you see immediate results?)
Are you depressed? (Loosing weight dramatically helps depression symptoms!)
Are you ready to look good and feel good about yourself?
If you answered yes to most of the above questions, then weight loss surgery is definitely for you! I would do it again tomorrow. I honestly want to stop every obese person I see and tell them about it! (I don't, because I realize some people are totally happy being overweight, and that's ok!) But if you want to feel better, look better, have more energy, play with your kids, and be crazy happy, DO IT! If you health insurance doesn't cover it, start a savings account and pay out of pocket! IT IS WORTH IT!
Today's weight: 175 lbs
Total Loss: 81 lbs
Monday, August 6, 2012
How its Going
Hi! Well, I got past the big number drop! The day of surgery (to have my gallbladder removed), which was last Friday, I stepped on the scale at the hospital and it said 179! Eeek! Then of course I had surgery, which went well, and gained about 5 lbs just of fluid and bloat. Ugh. But today I stepped on the scale and it was down to 178! I'm so excited!!!!
Only 38 more pounds to go to my goal! And next week, after my post op appointment, I start going to the gym. I've signed up for a Power Up class, which is a lot like a boot camp class. I need it. I need someone in my face telling me I'm strong. I need someone to yell at me. I need someone to tell me I'm not working hard enough. Because honestly, I'm not. I need to work out. I was doing really well until it got over 100 degrees around the 1st of July, and has stayed there ever since. Even at 8 PM, its still around 94 degrees outside. That's just too hot to walk or run for that matter. So now, I'll go to the air conditioned gym, and hopefully the weight will come off quicker again. :)
Today's Weight: 178
Total Loss: 78lbs
Only 38 more pounds to go to my goal! And next week, after my post op appointment, I start going to the gym. I've signed up for a Power Up class, which is a lot like a boot camp class. I need it. I need someone in my face telling me I'm strong. I need someone to yell at me. I need someone to tell me I'm not working hard enough. Because honestly, I'm not. I need to work out. I was doing really well until it got over 100 degrees around the 1st of July, and has stayed there ever since. Even at 8 PM, its still around 94 degrees outside. That's just too hot to walk or run for that matter. So now, I'll go to the air conditioned gym, and hopefully the weight will come off quicker again. :)
Today's Weight: 178
Total Loss: 78lbs
Thursday, July 26, 2012
The Big Number Drop
So I've told a few of my friends lately that the numbers on the scale I hate the most end with 1 and 0. Why? Because they are the last two pounds before the big number drop. I hated seeing 240. I wanted to be in the 230s. Then I hated seeing 231, because I was so ready to be in the 220s. And so on. And today, I'm at 180. I had a goal to be in the 170s before our yearly family reunion/ AKA, Camp Meeting. We leave next Wednesday. I'm having my gall bladder removed tomorrow. I hope it weighs at least a pound! LOL!
But I'm so ready for the big number drop. I'm ready to be in the 170s again. (I was 17 the last time I saw 170) For those of you who aren't good at math, that was 12 years ago. (And good God, that math problem just made me feel really old!) Hopefully, I'll wake up in the morning and the scale will say 179. That way once they take the gallbladder out, the scale will be even more sweet to me. :)
Speaking of sweet, my scale apparently has a sense of humor. Its a digital scale. Some days I will step on it and it gives me some absurd number. Like yesterday, when it said 157. Then I stepped off, stepped back on, and it said my true weight yesterday, 180.5. It's like, "Here's a number to make you happy." And then when I step back on its like the scale is saying, "Psych! Try again next time!" Stupid scale and its mind games!
Today's Weight: 180 lbs
Total Loss: 76 lbs
But I'm so ready for the big number drop. I'm ready to be in the 170s again. (I was 17 the last time I saw 170) For those of you who aren't good at math, that was 12 years ago. (And good God, that math problem just made me feel really old!) Hopefully, I'll wake up in the morning and the scale will say 179. That way once they take the gallbladder out, the scale will be even more sweet to me. :)
Speaking of sweet, my scale apparently has a sense of humor. Its a digital scale. Some days I will step on it and it gives me some absurd number. Like yesterday, when it said 157. Then I stepped off, stepped back on, and it said my true weight yesterday, 180.5. It's like, "Here's a number to make you happy." And then when I step back on its like the scale is saying, "Psych! Try again next time!" Stupid scale and its mind games!
Today's Weight: 180 lbs
Total Loss: 76 lbs
Thursday, July 19, 2012
What's Up?
So, what's up with me lately? Not much really. OK, I guess there is a lot.
First things first, I'm sitting at 182lbs as of yesterday. Weight loss is slow. I'm not discouraged, but I do wish I was still loosing 5-8 lbs per week like I was at first. But I guess my weight loss is normal, and maybe even accelerated, which brings its own set of challenges--more on that in a bit.
Next, I joined a gym! I was going to get a personal trainer, but decided its just not in the budget at this time. (It was going to be over $1200 for 5 months! Gah!) However, starting next week I'm planning on trying to at least go on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays for a Power Up (bootcamp style) class. I'm hoping that I can loose my last 42lbs quickly by building back some muscle and exercising. Hopefully the class won't kill me. And I'll be honest. I haven't been in a gym since I was about 17. So 12 years without stepping foot in a gym, and this wasn't Curves people. This was a hardcore, body building, crossfit style people gym. Nuts. It was hella intimidating. But I'm going to go back. Because even if I don't look like the bodybuilders and fitness models that frequent that place, I am at least doing something other than sitting on the couch, or browsing Pinterest.
Now for the bad news. Apparently, rapid weight loss can cause gallstones. I kept getting weird pains in my right side, right below my ribcage. I though I was just pulling muscles while exercising. Wrong. I went for an ultrasound, and my gallbladder is full of gallstones. So, for the second time in less than 6 months, I will be going under the knife. I have been assured that this procedure is much less painful than the gastric bypass, and its outpatient, so I'll get to go home the same day. Hopefully I'll heal quickly, because we all know I don't have time to be down!
Lastly, I wanted to let everyone know that just 4 days after my gallbladder surgery, I'm planning on going to Jon's family's campground for a week. Its kind of like a huge church camp for families. Its awesome. I'll be missing the first weekend due to my surgery, but dang it, I'm going for the second half of the week! The camp is in the boondocks in southern Arkansas. (Hollywood Arkansas actually. Never heard of it? Yeah, that's because the population is less than 40! haha!) Its actually been incorporated into the town of Arkadelphia. If you've heard of that and are thinking, "oh, that's not that far out" just remember, from the campground, we have to drive about 10 minutes before we can even get any cell phone reception. Yeah, that's how far into the boonies we will be. :)
As a parting gift to you, I'm posting a few pictures taken last week. :) Because I know you've all been loosing sleep at night wondering what I look like this week. Bwahaha!
First things first, I'm sitting at 182lbs as of yesterday. Weight loss is slow. I'm not discouraged, but I do wish I was still loosing 5-8 lbs per week like I was at first. But I guess my weight loss is normal, and maybe even accelerated, which brings its own set of challenges--more on that in a bit.
Next, I joined a gym! I was going to get a personal trainer, but decided its just not in the budget at this time. (It was going to be over $1200 for 5 months! Gah!) However, starting next week I'm planning on trying to at least go on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays for a Power Up (bootcamp style) class. I'm hoping that I can loose my last 42lbs quickly by building back some muscle and exercising. Hopefully the class won't kill me. And I'll be honest. I haven't been in a gym since I was about 17. So 12 years without stepping foot in a gym, and this wasn't Curves people. This was a hardcore, body building, crossfit style people gym. Nuts. It was hella intimidating. But I'm going to go back. Because even if I don't look like the bodybuilders and fitness models that frequent that place, I am at least doing something other than sitting on the couch, or browsing Pinterest.
Now for the bad news. Apparently, rapid weight loss can cause gallstones. I kept getting weird pains in my right side, right below my ribcage. I though I was just pulling muscles while exercising. Wrong. I went for an ultrasound, and my gallbladder is full of gallstones. So, for the second time in less than 6 months, I will be going under the knife. I have been assured that this procedure is much less painful than the gastric bypass, and its outpatient, so I'll get to go home the same day. Hopefully I'll heal quickly, because we all know I don't have time to be down!
Lastly, I wanted to let everyone know that just 4 days after my gallbladder surgery, I'm planning on going to Jon's family's campground for a week. Its kind of like a huge church camp for families. Its awesome. I'll be missing the first weekend due to my surgery, but dang it, I'm going for the second half of the week! The camp is in the boondocks in southern Arkansas. (Hollywood Arkansas actually. Never heard of it? Yeah, that's because the population is less than 40! haha!) Its actually been incorporated into the town of Arkadelphia. If you've heard of that and are thinking, "oh, that's not that far out" just remember, from the campground, we have to drive about 10 minutes before we can even get any cell phone reception. Yeah, that's how far into the boonies we will be. :)
As a parting gift to you, I'm posting a few pictures taken last week. :) Because I know you've all been loosing sleep at night wondering what I look like this week. Bwahaha!
Today's Weight: 182 lbs
Total Loss: 74 lbs
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
WHAT???
I stepped on the scale this morning, and guess what I saw? 186!!!!!! I distinctly remember weighing 188lbs when I graduated high school. Which means I've not only lost 70lbs since Christmas, but I now weigh less than I did the day I graduated High School 11 years ago.
Sometimes I wish there were do-overs in life though. Like my 10 year reunion that I skipped last year. I skipped the reunion partly because I went to high school with a bunch of overprivileged douche bags who I really didn't care to see again, but also because I was ashamed of how overweight I was. Isn't that sad? Now I wish I could go and show everyone how awesome I turned out. (AKA, show off pictures of my kids and my good looking husband!)
I also wish I could re-do my wedding. I really wish I could wear that beautiful Monique Lhullier dress that I wanted so badly, but didn't have the figure for. Although my dress was beautiful, it was not my dream dress. It was the dress that hid my fat the best, and flattered my unsightly figure the best. And it was one of the only dresses that came in a size 22.
But, there are not do-overs. Just lessons learned. What's the lesson here? If you are overweight, unhappy, and ashamed of yourself, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT NOW! YOU GAIN NOTHING BUT MORE WEIGHT BY WAITING! I wish I had done this right after I graduated College and before Jon and I got married. That way I could have worn that $5,000 dress and given my dad a heart attack when I asked him for his credit card. And I could have gone to that reunion and been proud of myself and my accomplishments.
You know what though? I am SO PROUD of myself. I am currently talking to three people who are considering weight loss surgery. I think that two of them are amazing candidates. (One just is not ready for the lifestyle change, and I get that. She'll get there eventually!) I hope that by sharing my story, I can show the world that being overweight is nothing to be ashamed of. And that doing something radical, like weight loss surgery, is nothing to be ashamed of either, and that it is NOT the easy way out.
You know me, changing the world one ass kicking at a time! Lol!
Today's Weight: 186
Loss since Surgery: 63lbs
Total Loss: 70lbs
Sometimes I wish there were do-overs in life though. Like my 10 year reunion that I skipped last year. I skipped the reunion partly because I went to high school with a bunch of overprivileged douche bags who I really didn't care to see again, but also because I was ashamed of how overweight I was. Isn't that sad? Now I wish I could go and show everyone how awesome I turned out. (AKA, show off pictures of my kids and my good looking husband!)
I also wish I could re-do my wedding. I really wish I could wear that beautiful Monique Lhullier dress that I wanted so badly, but didn't have the figure for. Although my dress was beautiful, it was not my dream dress. It was the dress that hid my fat the best, and flattered my unsightly figure the best. And it was one of the only dresses that came in a size 22.
But, there are not do-overs. Just lessons learned. What's the lesson here? If you are overweight, unhappy, and ashamed of yourself, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT NOW! YOU GAIN NOTHING BUT MORE WEIGHT BY WAITING! I wish I had done this right after I graduated College and before Jon and I got married. That way I could have worn that $5,000 dress and given my dad a heart attack when I asked him for his credit card. And I could have gone to that reunion and been proud of myself and my accomplishments.
You know what though? I am SO PROUD of myself. I am currently talking to three people who are considering weight loss surgery. I think that two of them are amazing candidates. (One just is not ready for the lifestyle change, and I get that. She'll get there eventually!) I hope that by sharing my story, I can show the world that being overweight is nothing to be ashamed of. And that doing something radical, like weight loss surgery, is nothing to be ashamed of either, and that it is NOT the easy way out.
You know me, changing the world one ass kicking at a time! Lol!
Today's Weight: 186
Loss since Surgery: 63lbs
Total Loss: 70lbs
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Picture Time
Pictures were requested by a friend yesterday, so I aim to please! (Did you catch that 50 Shades of Grey Reference? lol)
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
The Cover Up
I told you all yesterday that today I would talk about how all the extra weight I was carrying severely damaged my self esteem. Well, here goes.
A year ago, my life was all a cover up. Thoughts were constantly running through my head. Thoughts like, "How can I blend in." "What can I wear that doesn't make me look like I weigh 256lbs?" "Does this make me look fat? Oh yeah, of course it does. Is there anything I own that makes me look less fat?" and my personal favorite, "I can't do/wear that. That's for skinny people."
At some point, I got so freaking tired of thinking those things. It was downright exhausting! And my ass hadn't even gotten off the couch! LOL! But really, mentally, it was taxing. And I didn't want to live that way anymore. So I went to an info session at Dr. Roller's office to check about lap band surgery. I thought I needed to loose about 40 or 50 lbs. Hahahaha! I really had no idea how out of control my weight was. And I was the SMALLEST person there! So really, I was sure I didn't need the surgery. But I went ahead and made an appointment with the Dr. to discuss options.
I was SHOCKED when Dr. Roller told me that I needed to loose about 110 lbs, and that I was a good candidate for full Roux en Y gastric bypass surgery. Holy shit! Was it really that bad? Well, yes, it was. I didn't have any health problems (or so I thought), I was active (or so I thought), and I was young. Surely I wasn't that big!
Oh, but I was. Now, I realize that I did have health problems. My blood pressure was running around 128/78. Now it runs 118/65. My fasting blood sugars were around 128. Now they are around 80. And I was NOT active. At least not compared to now! Now I will run laps around my husband at our local theme park. I'm pumped when I get there, and I'm not exhausted when we leave 6 hours later after riding every roller coaster in the park and walking about 5 miles. And as far as the being young part goes, I feel 10 years younger now. (And honestly, I look about 5 years younger) Truthfully, I look 10 times better today than I did 6.5 years ago at my wedding. I think I'm hot, and so does my husband.
I'm not covering anything up anymore. Yes, I still have bumpy bits, and jiggles. Yes, I have a bit of flabby excess skin. But I'm NOT covering it up. Now I'm not ready for a bikini yet, but I'm rocking my tankini this year. (You know, besides the saggy boobs, but that's from breastfeeding 2 kids!) And I'm wearing sleeveless shirts. I haven't worn a sleeveless shirt since my Sophmore year of college. And I'm not afraid to wear shorter shorts. And dresses don't look like mumus on me anymore. And I feel good about myself.
Once again, weight is not related to self worth. I know a lot of bigger girls, who are beautiful, healthy, active, and who don't cover up. They are beautiful, and they feel beautiful, and they rock their curves. But I was not one of those girls. I was so ashamed of myself. Losing the weight has allowed me to let go of that shame, and be happy again. And I FEEL great too. Which really is the best part of all.
Atina
A year ago, my life was all a cover up. Thoughts were constantly running through my head. Thoughts like, "How can I blend in." "What can I wear that doesn't make me look like I weigh 256lbs?" "Does this make me look fat? Oh yeah, of course it does. Is there anything I own that makes me look less fat?" and my personal favorite, "I can't do/wear that. That's for skinny people."
At some point, I got so freaking tired of thinking those things. It was downright exhausting! And my ass hadn't even gotten off the couch! LOL! But really, mentally, it was taxing. And I didn't want to live that way anymore. So I went to an info session at Dr. Roller's office to check about lap band surgery. I thought I needed to loose about 40 or 50 lbs. Hahahaha! I really had no idea how out of control my weight was. And I was the SMALLEST person there! So really, I was sure I didn't need the surgery. But I went ahead and made an appointment with the Dr. to discuss options.
I was SHOCKED when Dr. Roller told me that I needed to loose about 110 lbs, and that I was a good candidate for full Roux en Y gastric bypass surgery. Holy shit! Was it really that bad? Well, yes, it was. I didn't have any health problems (or so I thought), I was active (or so I thought), and I was young. Surely I wasn't that big!
Oh, but I was. Now, I realize that I did have health problems. My blood pressure was running around 128/78. Now it runs 118/65. My fasting blood sugars were around 128. Now they are around 80. And I was NOT active. At least not compared to now! Now I will run laps around my husband at our local theme park. I'm pumped when I get there, and I'm not exhausted when we leave 6 hours later after riding every roller coaster in the park and walking about 5 miles. And as far as the being young part goes, I feel 10 years younger now. (And honestly, I look about 5 years younger) Truthfully, I look 10 times better today than I did 6.5 years ago at my wedding. I think I'm hot, and so does my husband.
I'm not covering anything up anymore. Yes, I still have bumpy bits, and jiggles. Yes, I have a bit of flabby excess skin. But I'm NOT covering it up. Now I'm not ready for a bikini yet, but I'm rocking my tankini this year. (You know, besides the saggy boobs, but that's from breastfeeding 2 kids!) And I'm wearing sleeveless shirts. I haven't worn a sleeveless shirt since my Sophmore year of college. And I'm not afraid to wear shorter shorts. And dresses don't look like mumus on me anymore. And I feel good about myself.
Once again, weight is not related to self worth. I know a lot of bigger girls, who are beautiful, healthy, active, and who don't cover up. They are beautiful, and they feel beautiful, and they rock their curves. But I was not one of those girls. I was so ashamed of myself. Losing the weight has allowed me to let go of that shame, and be happy again. And I FEEL great too. Which really is the best part of all.
Atina
Monday, June 18, 2012
Jumpstart
Hi everybody! I know, its been almost a month. Sorry. Today I'm at 188lbs. That means I've lost 8 lbs over the last month. That's nice, but I would like to be losing faster. I'm going to call the Dr. here in just a bit to see if that's where I should be at this point, or if I should be losing faster. At this point, I have 48lbs left to go to get to my goal. If I keep losing at the rate I'm going now, that would mean 6 more months before I meet my goal, which would put me a year post op. Which I guess is what they said would be the point that I would likely stop losing, but still, I wanna be skinny now!
I'm going to try something over the next week. I'm going to try to eat nothing but protein shakes or greek yogurt or cottage cheese for breakfast and lunch. Then eat a small dinner. Hopefully that will jumpstart the weight loss again.
Eating has been going pretty good lately. Except for the BBQ Tri-Tip sandwich I tried to eat the other night from my favorite BBQ place. That went horribly. Imagine me, getting a nice, relaxing pedicure. Then having to try to tell the poor Filipino lady that I had to go puke, except she spoke no English. Yeah, sweet! Lol!
But other than that, things are going good. We went to Shogun for Father's Day dinner last night. I ate some salad, some soup, a few veggies, some steak, and a few bites of fried rice. (Cause hey, what's the point if you don't at least get a few bites of the rice!)
On the exercise front: I LOVE mowing the lawn! Who knew? So I've been push mowing the lawn once a week for a workout. And I've been walking 1 mile about 3 days a week with a friend. The kids love to go for walks, and I get a workout. :) I also tried the P90X 30 Day Ab Challenge. FAIL! That thing kicked my ass big time! I got through 3 of 7 exercises, then I was so sore for 3 days that I could barely lift my legs! (Again, the pedicure lady thought I was pathetic. I couldn't lift my leg for her, and I was puking. Awesome!) But apparently I'm a sadist, because I'm going to try it again today.
On the appearance front, I had to go buy some new t shirts the other day. I didn't have any that fit me! Yay! I'm wearing a large, almost medium T-shirt now. And most of the clothes I'm buying are size 14 or a size large. This makes me so happy! I haven't been this thin since High School. Hells yeah! I got a haircut last week. Its a little shorter than shoulder length, and my face doesn't look fat! And My pedicure looks awesome too. :)
Overall, life is good. I feel great, I look great, and I'm super active compared to when I was fat. Notice that? When I was fat? Yep, I no longer consider myself fat. Could I stand to loose 40 more pounds? Yes. If I never loose that 40 lbs will I be unhappy? YES! Do I love myself more now than I did in January? HECK YES! Am I super proud of myself that I've lost 68lbs since Christmas? You bet your ass I am! Am I still a fat girl? Absolutely not. Is self worth related to weight? No. Hell no. But for me, losing the weight has made me realize how unhappy I was. More on that tomorrow.
Today's Weight: 188
Total Loss: 68 lbs
XOXO
ATINA
I'm going to try something over the next week. I'm going to try to eat nothing but protein shakes or greek yogurt or cottage cheese for breakfast and lunch. Then eat a small dinner. Hopefully that will jumpstart the weight loss again.
Eating has been going pretty good lately. Except for the BBQ Tri-Tip sandwich I tried to eat the other night from my favorite BBQ place. That went horribly. Imagine me, getting a nice, relaxing pedicure. Then having to try to tell the poor Filipino lady that I had to go puke, except she spoke no English. Yeah, sweet! Lol!
But other than that, things are going good. We went to Shogun for Father's Day dinner last night. I ate some salad, some soup, a few veggies, some steak, and a few bites of fried rice. (Cause hey, what's the point if you don't at least get a few bites of the rice!)
On the exercise front: I LOVE mowing the lawn! Who knew? So I've been push mowing the lawn once a week for a workout. And I've been walking 1 mile about 3 days a week with a friend. The kids love to go for walks, and I get a workout. :) I also tried the P90X 30 Day Ab Challenge. FAIL! That thing kicked my ass big time! I got through 3 of 7 exercises, then I was so sore for 3 days that I could barely lift my legs! (Again, the pedicure lady thought I was pathetic. I couldn't lift my leg for her, and I was puking. Awesome!) But apparently I'm a sadist, because I'm going to try it again today.
On the appearance front, I had to go buy some new t shirts the other day. I didn't have any that fit me! Yay! I'm wearing a large, almost medium T-shirt now. And most of the clothes I'm buying are size 14 or a size large. This makes me so happy! I haven't been this thin since High School. Hells yeah! I got a haircut last week. Its a little shorter than shoulder length, and my face doesn't look fat! And My pedicure looks awesome too. :)
Overall, life is good. I feel great, I look great, and I'm super active compared to when I was fat. Notice that? When I was fat? Yep, I no longer consider myself fat. Could I stand to loose 40 more pounds? Yes. If I never loose that 40 lbs will I be unhappy? YES! Do I love myself more now than I did in January? HECK YES! Am I super proud of myself that I've lost 68lbs since Christmas? You bet your ass I am! Am I still a fat girl? Absolutely not. Is self worth related to weight? No. Hell no. But for me, losing the weight has made me realize how unhappy I was. More on that tomorrow.
Today's Weight: 188
Total Loss: 68 lbs
XOXO
ATINA
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Plateaus Suck
The title describes it all. I've been stuck at 195 since last Thursday. Dang it. I know, its not even been a full week, but usually I'll drop at least 1/2 lb every 3-4 days. I guess my lazy self is gonna have to work out more. (translated-work out. Because working out has been walking 3-4 days a week.)
I found a slimming workout in a magazine that looks semi-doable. None of that insanity shit. That shit is for marathon runners and crazy people who have done long stints in the military or prison. Not former fatties who have transformed into chubbies. I think I would totally die. So I'm going to work my way up. I might try P90X if my wimpy little magazine exercise doesn't kill me. The workout combines a little strength training with 30 minutes of cardio 6 days a week. (just interval walking/jogging)
I tried running. FAIL! My shorts kept falling down because my gut was pushing them down, and my boobs (Which are still sitting pretty at a 38 DDD) almost gave me black eyes. Not to mention the fact that I must have looked like Santa running for a cookie on Christmas Eve, and both kids were screaming because I was going way too fast. (They were in the double jogging stroller.) LOL!
Also, the lawn needs to be mowed badly, so I thought I'd try to do Jon a favor and at least mow the front today while he's at work and Elliot is napping. So there's a workout there too. Dang, look at me go. Suck it Jillian Michaels! (I really don't like her by the way. She's still the devil. Nobody works out that hard for fun. And if you do, sorry, but I need to introduce you to shopping and Jose Cuervo Margaritas and my kids.--not exactly in that order. We'll at least wait until the kids are in bed before proving that Jose Cuervo is more fun than Jillian Michaels.)
Anyway, here are the stats:
Today's Weight: 195
Total Loss since surgery: 54lbs
Total Loss since Christmas: 61lbs
I found a slimming workout in a magazine that looks semi-doable. None of that insanity shit. That shit is for marathon runners and crazy people who have done long stints in the military or prison. Not former fatties who have transformed into chubbies. I think I would totally die. So I'm going to work my way up. I might try P90X if my wimpy little magazine exercise doesn't kill me. The workout combines a little strength training with 30 minutes of cardio 6 days a week. (just interval walking/jogging)
I tried running. FAIL! My shorts kept falling down because my gut was pushing them down, and my boobs (Which are still sitting pretty at a 38 DDD) almost gave me black eyes. Not to mention the fact that I must have looked like Santa running for a cookie on Christmas Eve, and both kids were screaming because I was going way too fast. (They were in the double jogging stroller.) LOL!
Also, the lawn needs to be mowed badly, so I thought I'd try to do Jon a favor and at least mow the front today while he's at work and Elliot is napping. So there's a workout there too. Dang, look at me go. Suck it Jillian Michaels! (I really don't like her by the way. She's still the devil. Nobody works out that hard for fun. And if you do, sorry, but I need to introduce you to shopping and Jose Cuervo Margaritas and my kids.--not exactly in that order. We'll at least wait until the kids are in bed before proving that Jose Cuervo is more fun than Jillian Michaels.)
Anyway, here are the stats:
Today's Weight: 195
Total Loss since surgery: 54lbs
Total Loss since Christmas: 61lbs
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Just for Reference
Just for me, I needed to see the two pictures side by side. Here goes:
November 2011
February 2012
November 2011
February 2012
Today, May 12, 2012
Stats and Pictures
Just thought I'd start with a few pictures, then list my current stats. (I'm so proud of myself today!)
Now for the Stats:
Pant Size: 14
Shirt Size: L in T shirts, XL in more fitted shirts
Dress Size: 14-16 (usually 14)
Bra Size: 38 DDD (Yep, they still haven't gone down, but my band size is getting too large again, so I'm guessing soon this size will be 36 DDD--Good Lord!)
Today's Weight: 197
Total Lost Since Surgery: 52lbs
Total Lost Since Christmas: 59lbs
Now for the Stats:
Pant Size: 14
Shirt Size: L in T shirts, XL in more fitted shirts
Dress Size: 14-16 (usually 14)
Bra Size: 38 DDD (Yep, they still haven't gone down, but my band size is getting too large again, so I'm guessing soon this size will be 36 DDD--Good Lord!)
Today's Weight: 197
Total Lost Since Surgery: 52lbs
Total Lost Since Christmas: 59lbs
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
I DID IT!
So this post is technically a few days late. I hit my goal of being under 200lbs on Friday, May 4th. I'm still there, but then again, I didn't exactly follow my diet to a T while I was on my mini vacation. However, I NO LONGER WIEGH OVER 200LBS!!!!!
I'm just giddy over here. I'm hoping to be under 180 by August. Thats my next goal. And I can't wait!
I'm just giddy over here. I'm hoping to be under 180 by August. Thats my next goal. And I can't wait!
Monday, April 30, 2012
2 More Pounds...
2 More pounds. That's all. I'm praying that I wake up tomorrow morning at 199. I want so badly to break the 200 mark. For me, its a personal goal that lifts a huge weight off my shoulders. Literally! I've been struggling with the 200lb mark since my freshman year of college. That's 10.5 years of hating the number 200. For all I care, 200 can suck it. Cause I'm gonna see that number for a minimum of one more week. After that, I'm NEVER seeing it again. NEVER!
Eating is going better. Although Chinese food is probably something I should wait a while to try again. (Yeah, that wasn't a great idea!) But I'm able to eat more meats, salads, and fruits. And OMG, I used to hate raspberries, but I cannot get enough of them now. Fresh raspberries. Yum!
Oh, and my wedding rings no longer fit. They were originally a size 7. I had to have them sized up to a size 8 after Elliot was born. I went to my uncle, who owns Swifts Jewelry, and he took them to resize them to a ---size 6.5! That's crazy. I am 20lbs lighter now than when I got married. Heck, from when I got engaged! I literally don't think I can wear my wedding dress anymore. And not because its too small! Yay!
The weight loss is slower now. Its very strange. I'll have a fat day, where I feel really big. Then the scale will move one or two pounds, then a few days later I have a skinny day. Like today. So I took a picture. :)
Today's Weight: 201
Total Loss: 48 lbs
Eating is going better. Although Chinese food is probably something I should wait a while to try again. (Yeah, that wasn't a great idea!) But I'm able to eat more meats, salads, and fruits. And OMG, I used to hate raspberries, but I cannot get enough of them now. Fresh raspberries. Yum!
Oh, and my wedding rings no longer fit. They were originally a size 7. I had to have them sized up to a size 8 after Elliot was born. I went to my uncle, who owns Swifts Jewelry, and he took them to resize them to a ---size 6.5! That's crazy. I am 20lbs lighter now than when I got married. Heck, from when I got engaged! I literally don't think I can wear my wedding dress anymore. And not because its too small! Yay!
The weight loss is slower now. Its very strange. I'll have a fat day, where I feel really big. Then the scale will move one or two pounds, then a few days later I have a skinny day. Like today. So I took a picture. :)
Today's Weight: 201
Total Loss: 48 lbs
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Easter
We had a great Easter here! The family and I loaded up on Thursday afternoon and made the trip to Little Rock to visit Jon's parents. We had a blast! I didn't get sick once, and we even got a night out. We went out with friends to dinner at a Japanese Hibachi restaurant, and it was sooooo good! I'm finding that seared Ahi Tuna is one of my favorite dishes. It sits nicely, and tastes amazing. I also had a few veggies, some miso soup, a few bites of rice, a shrimp, and a few bites of Jon's steak. Heaven I tell you! And I had an orange for dessert! So good. I wish we were rich and I could eat Japanese food every night!
Easter dinner was good too. The ham didn't sit too well, but I did manage to eat some green beans, Hash Brown Casserole, a crescent roll, and some corn. Overall, eating went well!
We mainly rested and played with the kids while we were there. It was nice to get away and relax! And I managed to loose a pound even over Easter. Yay!
Today's weight: 208
Total Loss: 41lbs
Easter dinner was good too. The ham didn't sit too well, but I did manage to eat some green beans, Hash Brown Casserole, a crescent roll, and some corn. Overall, eating went well!
We mainly rested and played with the kids while we were there. It was nice to get away and relax! And I managed to loose a pound even over Easter. Yay!
Today's weight: 208
Total Loss: 41lbs
Monday, April 2, 2012
HOLY COW!
Today I realized that I have lost 40lbs since surgery. 47 since Christmas. That's a lot of weight guys! I'm in a bit of shock. I went through my closet and got rid of all the clothes that are too big for me. It was a TON of stuff. 9 pair of jeans. 4 pair of slacks. over 75 shirts. And that's just my closet. I still have to go through my dresser. (Most of that I'll be keeping though. I can handle T shirts that are too big. They're great for sleeping and painting in.) My underwear is even getting big. Not the bras, I've already had to buy new bras, and the new ones are starting to get big in the band again--but the panties. You know you've lost weight when your panties are too big!
Its really surreal to have lost this much. And I still have 70lbs left to go. I never realized I had gotten so big. Now I look at those clothes and think, "Wow, those are huge? How did I fit into those?" The worst part is, those clothes were starting to get tight on me too. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of me, because, well, it has. :)
Today's Weight: 209
Total Loss: 40lbs
Its really surreal to have lost this much. And I still have 70lbs left to go. I never realized I had gotten so big. Now I look at those clothes and think, "Wow, those are huge? How did I fit into those?" The worst part is, those clothes were starting to get tight on me too. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of me, because, well, it has. :)
Notice Elliot in the tub behind me?
Today's Weight: 209
Total Loss: 40lbs
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